The Business Of Unfinished Business

“Unfinished business lingers like a shadow — it follows you until you finally face it.”

Very random ang post na ito. Essentially, lahat ng draft posts ko that I wanted to delete to declutter, but the content, minsan title lang, was too good to be deleted. So here they are, I'm sharing them with you in random order, and there are no timestamps; the earliest entry was from 2019. Hulaan ninyo na lang kung alin.

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Mga Bunga ng Kahapon

"Gaano kahirap ang umusad at iwan ang nakaraan kung ang buhay mo ngayon ay puno ng ala-ala ng kahapon?"

Sabado ng umaga, kakatapos lang ni Andrea sa kanyang trabaho.

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Our Team Was Crucified For Logging Too Many OTs

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Why I Cut Off People So Easy

"I never want to give people an impression that disrespecting me will be so easy because I forgive so easily."

Many people took advantage of me in the past because I let them. That time, I looked as if I was too afraid of confrontation, that instead of fighting for what I knew was right, I'd rather say yes and get on with my life as if nothing happened. But that's all in the past, do some crazy shit on me now and you'll be history tomorrow. You see, it took me years to get to this point. It took a lot of practice. It took a lot of yeses that should have been nos. It took a lot of happiness outside, but deep inside I screamed in anger.

Let me tell you three stories of how I got to this point...

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I Hate People Who Don't Know How to Respect Others' Rest: Anecdotes from Sleeping and Everything in Between

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I Left My Job For Petty Reasons

"You know what, these reasons you have are all petty. If you've only raised these things to the right people, these could have been addressed immediately."

These are the exact lines that I heard from one of the people who received my first resignation letter. Yes, first, because I have to revise my resignation letter for them to accept it. But what exactly are my reasons this person has the audacity to call them petty?

I really thought that this company was the one for me to grow my roots. Aside from the fact that it's very near to my residence, the people whom I was able to speak with during my interview were really proud of what the company has done for them.

Now let me tell you my story from the day I started my training until the last day of my 30-day notice.

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I Don't Give A F*ck: What It's Like to Only Listen To People Who Matter

"When people hear good things about you, they stay silent. When they hear bad things about you, they spread it like wildfire. But when they hear nothing about you, they make things up."

This is from a video that I watched on Facebook. Something random, yes. But very true. Life hasn't always been good to me. Things that made me come up with decisions when viewed by an outsider would be perceived that part of me as the entirety of my whole being. I committed mistakes that I already regretted for even thinking about them. I burned bridges with some people because I knew then that they would never be good for me as an individual. For all of these, I learned how to forgive myself, made peace with all my shortcomings, and moved forward so I could experience things that were only dreams in my past.

When people hear good things about you, they stay silent. People who matter celebrate your achievements and success.

When they hear bad things about you, they spread it like wildfire.

But when they hear nothing about you, they make things up.

However, it's important to remember you cannot control what others say about you or how they perceive you. Instead, focus on being the best version of yourself. And let your actions speak for themselves. Over time, your character and integrity will shine through. And the people who matter most will recognize and appreciate you for who you are.

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Will Miss My Comfort Show: The Heartbreak of Saying Goodbye to The Big Bang Theory on Netflix

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Today, I Was Called Gay At Work

"This was my first time getting called gay in a derogatory way since graduating high school."

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Para Saan Ang Bukas

"Do what is right, not what is easy."

Ito ang line na pinaka-natatandaan ko nang manuod ako ng Fantastic Beasts: Secrets of Dumbledore.

Eleksyon time na naman. Oras na naman para muli tayong mamili ng mga taong gagawa ng kapalaran ng ating bansa sa mga susunod na taon. Bakit nga ba natin kailangan ng mga taong mamumuno sa ating bansa? Ano nga ba ang responsibilidad natin bilang isang botante? Bilang isang Pilipino?

May mga pagkakataon na mas mahirap lunukin ang pride natin kaysa sa paglunok ng sobrang init na kanin. Pero bakit nga ba natin kailangang lunukin ang ating mga pride?

Ako, bilang isang ordinaryong mamamayan, naranasan ko na ang hindi kumain sa isang buong araw at naranasan ko na rin ang kumain ng limang beses sa isang araw. Pero ano bang kinalaman ng mga taong mauupo sa katungkulan sa kung ilang beses ako kumain at kakain sa loob ng isang araw?

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It's You, Only You

"Reasons for loving someone don't have to be complicated."

Nabasa ko 'yan sa isang public Facebook post. Totoo naman. Dati akala ko saying I love you because I love you was enough. But as I grew older, I realized that there must be something in that person that made me love him. I acknowledge the scientific explanation of falling in love, but from a hopeless romantic point-of-view, I want to share why I can say I love you.

Ngayong ikaw na ang nasa harapan ko, hindi na ako magsasayang ng oras at sasabihin ko na sa'yo kung bakit kita minamahal.

Sa ngiti mo pa lang nahuli mo na ang puso ko. My world suddenly stops whenever I see your sweet smile, ang tamis na parang gusto kong tikman by kissing you until the day when I can no longer kiss you.

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Sana Bukas Sa Paggising Mo

"Sana bukas sa paggising mo ang bigat na iyong nadarama ay maglaho na nang tuluyan."

Alam ko, nahihirapan ka na. Namnamin mo ang hirap sa ngayon dahil sigurado ako, bukas o makalawa, mawawala din 'yan. Ito ang paulit-ulit kong sinasabi sa aking sarili. But how true can this be? Most of the time, I feel like I'm just kidding myself.

Heartbreaks always give me the worst pain. Ang hirap kumilos, halos ayaw kong bumangon sa tuwing ang alarm ng phone ko eh tutunog. I've been through this before and yes, I was able...

Ang Pusang Itim

"Sa tuwing uuwi ng hating-gabi si Anthony mula sa trabaho ay palagi siyang nagdarasal na sana ay hindi siya makasalubong ng pusang itim sa daan. Pero bakit nga ba ayaw na ayaw niyang makasalubong ng pusang itim?"

Alas-nuwebe na ng gabi nang mag-log-out si Anthony sa trabaho, para sa kaniya eh mas maigi nang ganitong oras umuwi para hindi na gaanong trapik sa EDSA. Bagamat sanay nang umuuwi ng ganitong oras ng gabi ang binata ay palagi pa rin siyang nagdarasal bago umalis ng opisina at habang nasa biyahe. Palagi niyang ipinagdarasal na sana ay hindi siya makasalubong ng pusang itim sa daan.

Sa tuwing mangyayari kasi ito ay palaging may masamang nangyayari sa huling taong nakausap niya bago makasalubong ng pusang itim, kaya naman naging habit na rin niya na hindi makipag-usap sa mga katrabaho niya bago umalis ng opisina.

Habang naglalakad sa Paseo de Roxas papuntang sakayan ng bus ay umaalingawngaw pa rin sa tainga ni Anthony ang mga sinabi ng boss niya kanina bago ito umalis sa meeting ng kanilang team. Ito ay lubhang ikinapahiya niya kaya naman hindi na niya nagawa pang kausapin ang mga teammates niya pagkatapos ng meeting at kaagad na nagpunta sa kaniyang cubicle para itama kaagad ang katiting na mali sa document na ipinasa niya sa kaniyang boss.

"Estupido! It's just a simple report but you can't perfect it? Did I just hire a member of my team to give me an erroneous document? God! You're just wasting the salary that this company is paying you."

Para mawala sa isip niya ang mga nangyari sa trabaho kanina ay minabuti niyang makinig na lamang sa Spotify.

I ache for the touch of your lips, dear

But much more for the touch of your whips, dear

You can raise welts

Like nobody else

As we dance to the Masochism Tango

Let our love be a flame, not an ember

Say it's me that you want to dismember

Blacken my eye

Set fire to my tie

As we dance to the Masochism Tango

Naging effective naman ang pakikinig niya ng music. Hindi na niya namalayang malapit na pala siya sa babaan niya. Makalipas ang ilang minuto ay naglalakad na siya papunta sa inuupahan niyang apartment nang walang anu-ano ay may pusang itim na bigla na lamang dumaan nang patakbo sa kaniyang daraanan. Sa sobrang gulat ay muntik pa niyang maitapon ang hawak na cellphone. Maya-maya ay nakatanggap si Anthony ng text mula sa isa niyang ka-team.

Patay na si Sir Richard, nabangga daw ng taxi kanina habang tumatawid pauwi ng bahay nila.