My Kind Of Moment

“That feeling of always missing someone! As if living the life you've always been dreaming of is now modified into a realm of something wonderful, adventurous, and sexy.”

A small chat with a hi and hello led us to a reality that I never expected will happen very soon. You captured my unique taste for a person. You even twisted my view of how some things work in this world. I thought a concept that has been formulated out of concepts will never be true. You made me realized that love that has been created out of loyalty, patience, sacrifice, and many other intangible values of reality have always been true and I just needed to be with you to finally experience it. Can this really be true?

That first conversation totally stroked my whole being. I thought it was just a disoriented version of reality that was designed to deliver me to my nearing doom. I thought this feeling was just an isthmus to connect my old boring version with my dying unlucky self. Instead, you paved the way for my beautiful, unexpected, full of dreams life of today and the future. That moment of awkwardness opened a door for something new and exciting in my life.

It’s a boring afternoon of Saturday while buying some supplies in the nearest grocery when you texted that you’re already on your way to my place. I didn't know what to feel at that time because it’s my first time to meet a person who I thought will be a good match for my ever wondering and choosy mind. Yes! You intrigued me already the first time we talked about a random topic and I just noticed that we’re already jumping from one topic to another, being in a relationship to healthcare in the country, from being a student to the current political state of the Philippines. And I was like, “Okey, this is it.”

After the dinner came that awkward air. I, being very new to this kind of set-up decided not to do anything but acknowledged the awkwardness. Yes! I did think that that was an awkward moment but you said that it will just be awkward if for me it's awkward. You said that it's only a matter of how I look at the situation, how I wanted it to be, how I perceived it. And that amazed me again of how you think. You shared to me again a piece of your cake that I'd never reject, a drop of your juice that I'd always crave for.

But that conversation escalated quickly. You grabbed me by the shoulder, lowered my face, and devoured my innocent lips. Your tongue danced like a pro and invaded a foreign territory with no hesitation. A pro you were, you started a sword fight for dominance. A fight that both of us won.

As the night neared midnight, the love that I was feeling deepened just like how we moved and satisfied our cravings for something that's very unfamiliar to me. After a long time of devouring each other, I got the courage to ask where our meeting would lead us. And destiny had its own game that night, it led us to a place where our hearts never had the chance to deny the longing.

Morning came, I thought the euphoria of the last night ended that night. But I was so wrong. Hot air was softly caressing my neck, an arm was embracing me from the back, and two not so hairy legs were intertwined with mine. And I was right, you were there sleeping with me throughout that night. It was indeed the best morning of my life. That morning led to another hot and passionate breakfast in bed.

Lunch came and we decided to eat within the university premises. It was a simple lunch but a memory to keep. We had lunch that I would not forget. You gave me the most butterflies inside my tummy and put me on thousands of floppy clouds while we're just talking about random things about your life and mine. I did not know by that time why I was so happy and contented by just talking and talking and I even forgot that we're eating. You often caught me staring at you and when you did, I just smiled and said nothing.

But now, I know why. It's because I genuinely fell, falling, and will fall in love with you for the rest of my life.

After our lunch that seemed to be so fast, I invited you for a dessert in my favorite ice cream store in the campus. Good thing that you liked the variety of flavors available and even tried one of my favorites. After we got our own cones, we decided to take a walk to the Sunken Garden for a breath of fresh air. Once we're there, we sat on the grass under a big shady old tree while licking the melting sweetness in our hands. We sat there comfortably and you did it again to me, you put my heart in a race that I thought will never stop. We talked and talked and talked until I just realized that we were already talking about our future, a future with you and me in it, together.

You know what, that's the highlight of that moment for me. I will never forget that instant that you uttered "our future". I was in high heavens when you said that. You totally had me there. Until now and forever, that moment gives me shivers and chills of love and passion.

Upon returning home, we decided to take a nap but we ended up again kissing each other passionately. It's the passion that burned into a fire that even ourselves couldn’t control. It consumed us with joy and satisfaction. It was satisfaction as if there's no tomorrow for things that only two of us can do.

The night came and you had to go home. That night, I experienced the sweetest goodbye. You left me with a mark that no one could ever replace. That night, the rain poured with loud thunders and fierce flashes of lightning, as if celebrating our firsts together. Our firsts but will never be our lasts. Our firsts of the many other things that we'd have together until forever.